Why So Bitter?

I want to begin by noting the historic event that took place last night. America voted into office our first African Americna president, and I can not be more proud to say that I was able to take part in that event. I am proud of the accomplishments that Barack Obama has, both for himself and for the African American population!

However, I could not help but notice a sense of bitterness from the Republican party last night. (I am not grouping every Republican into this "bitter" category, just talking about a feeling I got as a whole!) I truly am baffled by this, and am looking for some understanding about it. I am not playing sides saying Democrats have it altogether, because we don't. (That's right... I just called myself a Democrat, and I htink I am getting more comfortable with that label every day!) Just trying to get some understanding on something that has really made me sad over the last few months.

I truly do respect John McCain as a war hero, and as someone who had the potential to be our next president. Had John McCain won last night, I would have been bummed, but would have moved on and accepted that he would be our next president. I feel that we can not truly, and humbly, debate with the other side until we respect the other side, and I admit I tried to debate the other side before respecting it, but in the last few months really began to respect John McCain.

Throughout this campaign, I have noted that I didn't feel like the Republican party was for anything; rather, they were against Barack Obama, and that confused me. Every time I heard John McCain speak, it was what Obama wants to do, usually in some distorted fashion. And, I heard of many McCain supporters at varying rallies being downright hostile about the opponent. Why? I never heard any of this hostility at Obama rallies.

Then there were all the smear ads that came out about Obama. Many McCain fans that I know began sending us "Anti-Obama" literature. Some laden with some of these smears, which are preposterous. I never even thought about posting a negative McCain ad, nor sending it to any of my friends, McCain supporters or not. I was Pro Obama, not Anti McCain, and I think you can be for one and not against the other. So, why are a lot of McCain supporters so Anti-Obama?

Then last night, I was saddened when watching the final results come in. While watching McCain's concession speach, I really did respect the guy. Amidst the "boos" in the audience every time McCain mentioned Obama, I thought McCain gave a powerful speech. After a time, they showed Grant Park in Chicago and Obama's speech, which I thought was very humble and amazing. He truly does want to unite this country, and even acknowledged McCain supporters, saying he wants to be a voice for them, and he needs them in this journey. Later, we found out that the McCain rally had turned off the signal right as Obama started speaking. Really??? Really? You turned off the signal right as our next president took the stage? Really? This baffles me. Sure, they are bummed that it wasn't McCain giving an acceptance speech, but you are that bitter that you can't even concede that this man is our next president, and give him the respect to hear what he has to say?

I truly believe that Obama would have lost to McCain, I would have been sad, but picked up from there and went on with life, trusting our next Commander in Chief. Just as I am bummed that some of the propositions that I have been so passionate about didn't go the way I voted, but I will pick up from there and live my life as Christ called us to live. That is something we get to make a decision to do every day, no matter who is president. I truly believe that Barack Obama is trying to live out his life the way he feels Christ called him to live, and as our president, let's stand behind him as he leads our country in this manner!

I'm just confused. So, I am looking for understanding from either side, McCain or Obama, since today we are once again on the same side of the line. For the first time in 21 months there are no defining lines by candidates, we do stand as America. So, I would welcome a civil discussion about this issue, and look forward to hearing a vast number of opinions about the issue.

I Kissed a Girl and I Liked it Then I Went to Hell!

One thing I have been really passionate about lately is Proposition 8 here in California, which is the proposition on the ballot to overthrow the decision to allow gays to marry. A yes vote would take away the right for homosexual couples to get married. As a Christian, I am supposed to vote yes, right? Well, I am not!

The title of this blog was taken from a sign outside a church in Ohio. And when I saw it on the news, I literally cried! I'm not sure if the tears were of anger or of hurt. Maybe it was a little of both!

My first point, is in the passage in the Bible that is most commonly referred to as pointing out homosexuality as a sin also deals with gossip, slander, and lust as being sins. I don't seen anyone picketing gossip, and I certainly haven't seen any signs outside churches that read, "I gossiped and I liked it, then I went to hell..." Because there is sure a lot of gossip going around in our Christian communities, isn't there?

Secondly, I feel that the gay community has been greatly discriminated against, especially by the church! I feel like the church has dealt with the issue of homosexuality in a terrible way. Instead of loving a homosexual and seeing them as a human being, most Christians have cast them aside and told them to go deal with their sin. I'm not sure that people who have not dealt with homosexuality can truly understand what a homosexual is going through, and I think for us to tell them to just, "get over it" is wrong!

So, I want to find a way to love homosexuals, and not to cast them aside from society. And I feel that one way to love them is to make them equals with rights for marriage! I can honestly say I don't understand what it is that you are going through as a homosexual, but let me try to understand, instead of banning something that you hold so near and dear to your heart!

As a Christian, let's stop excluding people from our "club", and make Christianity an open door for ALL to feel welcomed! Let's learn how to love people, even those who look different from us, and stop this form of racism that homosexuality has become! Let's stop condemning people to Hell, and start loving them in order to make this world a more civil place!

The Best Gift

This Christmas is probably going to be one of my most memorable when looking back for many reasons. One of the obvious ones is because this was Kaelyn's first Christmas that she really understood what was going on. For about two weeks leading up to Christmas, every morning when she would wake up she would ask Jason or I, "Open Chissis Pesents?" So cute!!! Another reason why this Christmas was so memorable was because it was the first Christmas since Jason and I have been married that we got a big chunk of time to spend as a family on Christmas Day. That really meant a lot to me. In fact, we didn't go anywhere. We stayed in our pajamas, and enjoyed each other all day long. That is something that is rare. Jason and I cooked a big holiday meal for just the three of us, and we really were able to spend the day enjoying each other instead of rushing everywhere.

One thing I was really struck with yesterday was just how blessed we are as a family. It was so fun for me to watch Christmas unfold through the eyes of my almost-two-year-old. Each present she opened had to be carefully loved by her before we moved on to the next one. Each new present was a new adventure for her to unwrap. She is such a tender little girl, and it was great to just sit back for a day and watch her be herself. Jason is also a great blessing to our family. He is one of the most caring and loving men I have ever met. He takes so much joy and pride in his two girls (Kaelyn and myself) and child to come. That was also incredible to watch.

The best gift I received yesterday was not just watching my family interact in the way my family does, but also a gift that I unwrapped, but it has much more value than the monetary value placed on it. It was a frame, and inside it Jason had printed up what looked like a diploma. And it reads that The Medina Family will do whatever it takes to encourage and help me to go for my Master's Degree. This gift spoke deep into my soul, and I could never purchase a gift big enough to make me any more happy than this one.

So, it is official. I am starting the application process to go for my Master's Degree. I am looking to take the GRE in another month or so, then apply after that. I am still skeptical that I am going to be accepted, but right now, an acceptance letter is the only thing standing between me and a Master's Degree (well, and a bunch of years of hard work!)!

Thank you family, for supporting, loving, and encouraging me when I don't always believe in myself as much as you do!

I'm Dreaming of a Master's Degree!

Well, I have been saying it for a while... I want to go back to school. Today I actually sent away for information for a Master's Degree. It feels a little weird! Not sure if I am actually going to go through with it yet. So many excuses not to... New baby on the way, not enough money, will I ever actually use it? Nonetheless, I can't get it out of my head.

I often wonder if I am just thinking back to college and romantisising the past. I often forget about the tearful phone calls to my dad each semester wanting to quit. (Thanks for keeping me going, Dad!) I mean, how stressful can it be to take one class a semester? (I'm pretty sure that's all I'd have time for with the little ones running around!)

So, wish me luck on going through with this. Still not sure if it would work financially. I mean, everything is just so cheap here in Southern California (please don't miss the sarcasm!) But for now, a girl can dream, right!?

Disillusioned

So, tonight Jason and I took Kaelyn to the park, as we often do on nights when we are all at home. Kaelyn loves the ducks at the park, so tonight we took some bread with us to give the ducks a little dinner. While Kaelyn was throwing bread in the water, most of the ducks were interested and came over to get their share of bread. However, there were about five ducks that wanted nothing to do with the bread. That is because those five ducks are fake. I noticed this a few weeks ago when we were down by the water looking at the ducks. I found it odd that there were certain ducks that never seemed to leave the spot where they were. Then I noticed the water line on one of the ducks. Real ducks don't get water lines! The more I looked at this duck, the more ridiculous is looked to me. Especially the one that is constantly beak-heavy.

The sad thing to me is that this isn't the only piece of "fake nature" that I have noticed surrounding me. There are the countless fake palm trees that are cell towers, which look atrocious by the way! There are also fake rocks that are covering electical boxes along a canyon road that we often take. The funny thing is, I think, we do this to cover up what is really there, but once you see it, it looks unnatural and odd. And you can't help looking at it every time you pass it. So, instead of covering it up, we actually are drawing more attention to it.

These fake ducks fall into another category, I think. Unless this is a way of covering up an underwater cell tower! These fake ducks, in my opinion, are to add to the ambiance of the park, even if there are no ducks around. This also strikes me as odd. Are people really happier in a park with fake ducks than with no ducks at all? Do people really gaze upon these fiber glass creatures and get a sense of calm over them? I sure don't!

The Wondeful World of Potty Training!

So, yesterday Jason and I had the joy of taking Kaelyn to Babies R' Us (Sorry I can't figure out how to type the "R" backwards!) to purchase a potty. I honestly wasn't thinking, "Alright, I'm going to potty train Kaelyn." My serious thought was, ok, we'll give this a try, and see if it works! If it does, great, if not, we'll put the potty on the shelf for another few months and try again.

So, last night we got home with the potty, and Kaelyn was so excited she was actually helping us put it together. As soon as we got it together, she opened the lid right up and took a seat! (Step number 1 of potty training... Not bad!)

So, since she was such a willing participant last night, I figured today at regular intervals I would take her in there diaper free, and see what would happen. I plopped her on there a few times, and she was so happy to be there. In fact at one point today I found her in the bathroom on her potty, of her own free will (fully clothed of course!)

Our last attempt of the night, I had put her on there, and we were happily reading the potty story book we bought with the potty last night, and all of the sudden she stood up, and a few drips came out! YAY!!! I had gotten her back on the potty, and we managed to get A WHOLE DRIP into the potty! So, I would say, day 1 of potty training was a success! Let's hope the rest of the days can be this good! Maybe tomorrow we'll get two drips in the potty!

How Far We Have Fallen

So, as some of you know, Jason and I have been on a journey the last two years to try to figure out what we feel the church should look like. Recently, Jason and I took a huge leap of faith and stopped attending a "church" altogether, or at least what some consider church. We believe that you don't go to church; rather, we are the church. And, for those of you who are about to go crazy, we really feel that we are following God's leading, and we aren't losing our faith. You just have to trust me here...

So, this is where it gets awkward, because everyone wants to know, "Well, what are you doing then?" And I am really still struggling to verbalize what we are doing exactly. I just know that we are absolutely fed up with church the way it is now, and there needs to be something completely different done, and not just cooler song sets and great theatrical lighting. If we truly want to be the church, we need to live life as Jesus did, not just hear great sermons that make us feel good, and leave doing nothing about it. I just want to get out of these Christian sub-cultures, and become relevant to those who aren't in a Christian sub-culture. And I want to make friends with people, not for the purpose of converting them, because then are they really friend? No, they are just projects!

I think the present day church has gotten so focused on "creating a mood" for worship, that we have missed the point entirely. We have spent so much time and energy trying to conjure up God that we completely miss Him. I think He does a fine enough job of making His presence known, and I don't think He needs our help.
Ok, I have probably completely lost some of you, and that's ok. I am just speaking from my heart, and typing what I am feeling. And if you don't agree with me, then that is great, and I honor your opinion as well. After all, the great mega-churches are reaching some. But not everyone. Not people like me. So, there needs to be a place for people like me, and that is what we are struggling to figure out what that looks like!

I would welcome your comments and dialogue about this matter! Always good to wrestle with others!

Sweet Home Chicago

So, anyone who knows me is probably getting sick of hearing how much I love and miss Chicago, but here we go again!

Today I was able to talk to one of my close friends from Chicago, and I was reminded how much I miss it out there. I love Chicago. And not only is it a great place, but it is where I grew up, where my dad lives, and where my closest friends live. I have learned that the older we get, the harder it is to make really close friends, and that has probably been my biggest struggle since moving to California. Not to say that I am a loser that can't make any friends (maybe I am?), but it is harder to find those rare friends that you can just completely be you around!

When I got back from our trip to Chicago, one of my friends out here had mentioned that I came back with a Chicago accent! (This surprised me, because I didn't hear any difference!) I was actually kind of glad by this, because I was once again identified as a "Chicagoan". Unfortunately, my guess is that I have lost it again! At least Kathi and I got Kaelyn to say "Chicago" while we were there!

While I do love Chicago, I am also thankful that I do get to live is such an awesome place as Southern California. Where else could I live where when it hits 68 degrees I pull out my sweatshirt! (I swore I would never get that bad, and I have!) I am thankful for the friendships that I am developing here, that I also believe will be friendships that will go beyond our time in Southern California. However, there is just something about Chicago that will always feel like home.

While in Chicago I was reminded of how thankful I am for my good friends that I can completely be myself around! Kathi, thanks for the chats until 3:30 in the morning, when we both needed to be up at 8:00. Those times will never be forgotten! Holly, thanks for the laughs and fun conversations that we can have. It is truly nice to have two great "sisters" that will be the best of friends no matter how many miles apart we live.

Joining the Consumers

So, I'm excited, because Jason and I finally decided to join the rest of America and purchase an I-Pod Nano! We decided we would get it as a joint anniversary gift for ourselves. We ended up buying it today! (A little early for our anniversary, but we get the point!) I must say, I am pleased with our purchase so far! :o)

The thing I noticed though, is how dangerous the consumer mind-set is. Of course, now that we have the Nano, we need to get the car charger/transmitter so we can listen to our I-Pod in the car. Then, there is the alarm clock that you can dock your I-Pod in, so you can wake up to your favorite tunes! Then, there is the case, the docking station, etc, etc, etc. The list continues. Yikes! By the end, this Nano is going to cost quite a bit! (Not too mention all the songs we will buy on I-Tunes!) Apple was smart! Should have bought some stock a while ago, huh?

Then, once you make a big purchase, it is easy to want to buy more, isn't it? Afterwards we walked into Bed Bath & Beyond, and started pricing new toaster ovens. Then we went to Costco, and started looking at patio furniture and playsets. Not that we bought any of these things, or we even have the slightest intention of buying them, but it is so easy, isn't it? I find that when I am in the habit of spending, I want to continue spending. But when I am in the habit of saving, that is what I do.

Now, Jason and I are not "big spenders", mainly because corporate America sickens us, but we often have times when we just want to spend, spend, spend. Granted, the Nano was a gift to ourselves, celebrating three years of marriage, but that can easily turn into greed. And once again it is time to relearn contentment!

Can't We All Just Get Along?

DISCLAIMER: So, I want to preface this blog with the fact that I am not fully knowledgable on politics, in fact I just registered to vote a few months ago. So, if I am wrong with some of my opinions because I am too naive, then so be it, but this is how things are as I understand them.

I just finished reading a book called I Sold My Soul on Ebay. Ok, so before you start blasting me, let me explain, briefly, the premise of this book. The author is an atheist (self-proclaimed at the "friendly atheist) who "Sold his Soul" on Ebay. In the auction he has stated that for every $10 that the bidder paid for him, he would go to church for one hour. Any church that the bidder wanted. He is very knowledgable about the Christian faith, but he wanted to see what church would look like through the eyes of an atheist. Long story short, an organization called Off The Map won his "soul" for $504. Now, if you are doing the math, that would mean he would be in church almost every Sunday for the next year. They made a deal with him that he would go to 15 churches (of differing types), and write a book about his findings. This book is about what he discovered as an atheist in Christian churches. Some of his observations are a little unsettling...

One of the things the author felt the church lacked was social justice. There were plently of sermons preached that told people how to better their lives, but what about bettering the society we live in? While he heard some churches talking about social justice issues, he didn't hear of many churches that were actually practicing social justice issues. Now, as I understand it, the Democratic party is one that mainly focuses on social justice, and the Republican party mainly focuses on moral issues. But, I pose the question, aren't these connected? Isn't social justice a moral issue? At least it is for me. What would help our society more? Taking care of the poor and the homeless, or outlawing abortion? Is it enough to say, "You can't abort babies, but once they get into the world, we aren't responsible for taking care of them as a society!"? (Ok, I AM Pro Life, but can you see the point that I am making here?) After all, what did Jesus spend his life doing? Telling people what they could or couldn't do, or taking care of the poor and oppressed?

Alright, so I understand that this blog is a bit controversial! I would love to have dialogue about it! I would welcome for you to leave comments, and we can have a discussion! I am still wrestling through things myself. But, if you lovingly want to engage me in a conversation about this blog, I would welcome it openly!